11 March of the year 2012 .

Today I was really upset . I woke up early around 7 although I slept at 1 a.m. just to wait for you .
around 8 o'clock morning , I typed 'wan' at my skype . He replied around 9 . I don't care about that , because I know he was still asleep . I know him well enough . and then we started web-caming . Yes, with my messy hair and my pajamas we started web-caming. Got problem ? That's me . Oh, before that , he called me and web-cam . It started with "zaf da bangun ke ? " I find that question really amusing . of course I was awake silly . If I am still sleeping , I wouldn't be answering your call .

I don't care about that . We talked like usual . Talk about yesterday's event and etc .
And then he asked me a question . I can't say what type because it's private . jeng jeng jeng . and I answered the question but it was a lie . He actually believed it . I was like "wan , why are you getting upset about ?".
And then I said , "how long do you think we've known each other ? how long we're together ?"
We were strangers and then friends , good friends , best friends and now here we are , together. 


First he answered "3" and then "1" . It's true it's been 3 years since we've known each other and 1 year since we've started going out .
"tau pon . So, up until now you still don't know wether I'm lying or I'm telling the truth ?"
"..."
"you don't even trust me ? "

The question actually involves other guys . I answered 'yes' . Of course it was a lie . How do you feel when the person you've been so long with doesn't know which one is a lie and which one is the truth and up until now he or she doesn't trust you ? Well, I don't know about you but I feel heartbroken .
Yela , bayangkan la , orang yang you gila trust tapi dia tak trust you balik .

Until now , we haven't made up yet . *sighs* . I hate to go through all this . But if this is what it's like to be in a realtionship , I don't care . I'll have to fix it no matter what it costs . I just don't want to let this slide away . I don't want my precious memory fade away .

One rule in every relationship. No matter how fade up you are , never ever suggest a break up.

I think I feel a lot better . Oh , and sorry for taking your time reading this . Have a goodnight or a good day!
Assalamualaikum.